well it looks like God has a different plan for me. i beat 59 ither people but sad to say, one girl beat me out for the position. ive cried my tears, now it is time to start over again and keep looking. tomorrow is loadout- also casey's last days. maybe i will have a few more tears! it has been a long week. we head to atlanta next and will be there for 10 days. well- im bummed out and tired so i think i am going to head to bed.

night